Paranoia

I am terrified of ending up paranoid. One time I woke up and I was almost sure I was paranoid; things got heavy for a bit.

Everyday when I get up, I stare at myself in the mirror for an hour or two. I look at me and I say, "You're paranoid, aren't you?" I usually don't answer, and I stop just short of beating the retched truth out of me. Nights are the same. Not sleeping so much these days.

Also, there are cameras sewn into my underpants and let me tell you, that's not making things easier.

And then there...wait. Wait. Shit.

I have to go.